Proti bochhor ami ekbar kore amar jonmanor agger raat'e ekta lekha likhi, nijeke niye. Shara bochhore oitukui kyebol nijer pechhone khorcha, ontoto sheibhabei to mone korte bhalobashi. Kintu ebochhor lyadh kheye korini shei raatre. Tokhon bhebechhilam modh ar lyadh'er joutho onachaar, khanikta prosroymakha dhikkar janiyei katiye diyechhilam. Ekhon mone hochhe ota lyadh noy, ota bhoy. Nije paltate paltate track na korte parar bhoy, ekta shopner modhhe rasta hariye felar bhoy, chorbito shei purono line'gulo lekhar bhoy. Debu, amar khub bhalo bondhu, ekhono obdhi, Debu, bolechhilo ei shiit'ei attotyag ghotbe. Kar attotyag, kyano attotyag, kisher attotyag, tokhon bujhini, borong porom anonde rasta'r rikshawala'r sathe boshe chhilim tanar proletariyo anonder budbud'e bijbij kore uthechhe matha'r bhitor. Ekhon mone hoy, shiitkaal'e bodhoy shobai kholosh chharay.
Attotyag'er shuruta hoye jay ek raat'er Bukowski shongom'e. Ja kichhu maya momota sukhho porda'r arale lukono chhayay bneche theke ekta morjada shomponno bishwash jugiyechhilo, shei gotata hurmur kore bhenge pore chokh'er shamne jantob ekta naribhuri beriye asha kodorjo chehara niye. Lok'ta sharajibon bosti'te katiye gelo, jokhon ichhe tokhon meyemanush dhore chudlo, ar kobita likhe gelo bishwer shob bishshoy ke bhalobasha'e, kharap bhasha'e namiye ene. Pordin shokalei tamak'er khonje ek riksha dada'r sathe adventure Gorfa'r gohin jongole, ebong tarpor bypass'er dhare chupchap under construction site'e boshe chhilim tante tante mone hoyechhilo, hyan, Bukowski'r joggo bachcha howar dom rakhi, pari nijeke huhu hawa'e uriye niye jete. Attotyag'er shuru.
Tarpor onek kanagoli'r cliched dour periye shei pherot amar bari, tamar bari Jadavpur'er prokhor narri'te. Jonmodin elo gelo, ami jonmalam na. Majhemodhhe mone holo, jodi likhe feli ekta kichhu, tarpor ki ar amar kichhu bolar thakbe? Ei bhoye beformayeshi lekhata hariye gelo.
December'er shesh, koyekjon mile train'e chepe Krishnonogor namlam bhor shaare chhotay. Train'er modhhe kuashakombol niye lofalofi, "amra nuton joubon'eri duut". Dupur belay jante parlam je ami mon khule knaad'te ajo bhoy paina. Ashole manush'er sathe manush je koto rokom ongobhongi'te baatichiit chalate paare, kotorokom bhabe, sheta Arjun Khyapar naam'er ekjon manush'ke dekhe bujhlam, bujhe knaadlam, hashlam, nesha korlam. Hawa'r awaj aro jwore shunte shuru korlam.
Phire asha Kolkata'y, jadubidya'r bhabnachinta niye koshorot kora, Pucu ke ekjon notun bondhu hishebe khunje pawa, kete gelo aro koyekdin. Pucu ajob manush, nijer bhanga prem'er golpo ar bhanga banshi shuniye amar prem'ta aro khanikta mojbuut kore dey protidin. Hoyto o na thakle ami nijer prem'ta ke bansher kella'tei rekhe ditam. Ekjon manush jaja bhulbhal korechhe, shegulo sref aure gelo, ar ami notes'er khatay tar prem'er chhobi ankte ankte kobe nijer prem'ta keo jeno bhalobeshe fellam. Amar chhnokchhnok batik shorbojonbidito, o syphillis jatiyo STD ekta, khanikta bamon hoye shurje haath mara'r moton byapar. Tobu amar bhalomanush meye'ta shob shojhho kore amake bus'e pashe boshar jayga'tuku dilo, fuule ota ston'er bnota'r moton ekta puru achhadon'e dheke dilo amar shob paap, shob pipasha. PC na thakle hoyto ami, hoyto noy, ami definitely bheshe jetam, kintu anchor boro mojbuut buniyadi brand. Ami amar prem'ta ke anchor naam dilam.
Aabra'ca'Dabra elo, nijer joto raag dukhho hotasha ayna bhanga'r obhiggota, shob ekjaygay joro kore banate thaklam bondhu'der sathe ekta notun rajjo, jekhane gaachh'e gaachh'e kobita gojay ar prottek bnaak'e sax haath'e ekta kore Pucu opekhha kore thake amar. Odbhut utopian ekta commune'er hyal'e hariye jachhi ami, bujhte pari.
Bhalopahar'e khonj pelam ekta jyanto kobi'r. Er agge shobshomoy mrito kobider sathe chador'ertolay othbosh kore esechhi, kintu ei prothom kachh theke ekta jolojyanoto gota kobi, ekta shottor bochhor late timeboma'r dekha peye kirom chokh gulo jyano kopal'e uthe gelo, kopal theke matha beye uthe aste aste dhnowa dhulo, jongolmohol'er jatra'r poster, jouthobahini ar tari-mohuwa ke pash katiye bheshe bheshe upor dik'e uthe jete laglo. Oi chokh jorar shondhan ar pabo na bujhei hoyto notun choshmata agge theke koriye rekhechhilam. Notun bhabe dekhte laglam shob kichhu.
Bondhu Apurba bolechhilo je ami boddo stereotypical line likhi, kintu mairi bolchhi, ja kichhu achhe ta thak, ar ja kichuu gechhe ta jak, ami er baire ekhono, ei muhurte lekhata lekhakalino berote parchhi na. School'er bondhura shobai kirom ekta bemanan bekhappa smriti'r jayga'y dhuke porlo, ar notun bondhugulo aro notun notun kore peg'er por peg hishebe pile up korchhe ekhon chul dhaka bakshota'r bhetor.
Attotyag'er onektai baki, hoyto tai lekha'tao jutshoi holo na, aro kichhu din jak, aro kichhu khoye jai, aro kichhuta ghilu beriye poruk, pore thakuk pikmakha rasta'e, ami hoyto aro beshi shotti kore kothagulo bolte shikhbo. Shei ashate, ei shiit'e attotyag cholte thakuk.
BTW, hawa'r jwor'ta ekhono ter pachhi, kintu awaj'ta kyano janina apatoto shunte pacchi na.
Attotyag'er shuruta hoye jay ek raat'er Bukowski shongom'e. Ja kichhu maya momota sukhho porda'r arale lukono chhayay bneche theke ekta morjada shomponno bishwash jugiyechhilo, shei gotata hurmur kore bhenge pore chokh'er shamne jantob ekta naribhuri beriye asha kodorjo chehara niye. Lok'ta sharajibon bosti'te katiye gelo, jokhon ichhe tokhon meyemanush dhore chudlo, ar kobita likhe gelo bishwer shob bishshoy ke bhalobasha'e, kharap bhasha'e namiye ene. Pordin shokalei tamak'er khonje ek riksha dada'r sathe adventure Gorfa'r gohin jongole, ebong tarpor bypass'er dhare chupchap under construction site'e boshe chhilim tante tante mone hoyechhilo, hyan, Bukowski'r joggo bachcha howar dom rakhi, pari nijeke huhu hawa'e uriye niye jete. Attotyag'er shuru.
Tarpor onek kanagoli'r cliched dour periye shei pherot amar bari, tamar bari Jadavpur'er prokhor narri'te. Jonmodin elo gelo, ami jonmalam na. Majhemodhhe mone holo, jodi likhe feli ekta kichhu, tarpor ki ar amar kichhu bolar thakbe? Ei bhoye beformayeshi lekhata hariye gelo.
December'er shesh, koyekjon mile train'e chepe Krishnonogor namlam bhor shaare chhotay. Train'er modhhe kuashakombol niye lofalofi, "amra nuton joubon'eri duut". Dupur belay jante parlam je ami mon khule knaad'te ajo bhoy paina. Ashole manush'er sathe manush je koto rokom ongobhongi'te baatichiit chalate paare, kotorokom bhabe, sheta Arjun Khyapar naam'er ekjon manush'ke dekhe bujhlam, bujhe knaadlam, hashlam, nesha korlam. Hawa'r awaj aro jwore shunte shuru korlam.
Phire asha Kolkata'y, jadubidya'r bhabnachinta niye koshorot kora, Pucu ke ekjon notun bondhu hishebe khunje pawa, kete gelo aro koyekdin. Pucu ajob manush, nijer bhanga prem'er golpo ar bhanga banshi shuniye amar prem'ta aro khanikta mojbuut kore dey protidin. Hoyto o na thakle ami nijer prem'ta ke bansher kella'tei rekhe ditam. Ekjon manush jaja bhulbhal korechhe, shegulo sref aure gelo, ar ami notes'er khatay tar prem'er chhobi ankte ankte kobe nijer prem'ta keo jeno bhalobeshe fellam. Amar chhnokchhnok batik shorbojonbidito, o syphillis jatiyo STD ekta, khanikta bamon hoye shurje haath mara'r moton byapar. Tobu amar bhalomanush meye'ta shob shojhho kore amake bus'e pashe boshar jayga'tuku dilo, fuule ota ston'er bnota'r moton ekta puru achhadon'e dheke dilo amar shob paap, shob pipasha. PC na thakle hoyto ami, hoyto noy, ami definitely bheshe jetam, kintu anchor boro mojbuut buniyadi brand. Ami amar prem'ta ke anchor naam dilam.
Aabra'ca'Dabra elo, nijer joto raag dukhho hotasha ayna bhanga'r obhiggota, shob ekjaygay joro kore banate thaklam bondhu'der sathe ekta notun rajjo, jekhane gaachh'e gaachh'e kobita gojay ar prottek bnaak'e sax haath'e ekta kore Pucu opekhha kore thake amar. Odbhut utopian ekta commune'er hyal'e hariye jachhi ami, bujhte pari.
Bhalopahar'e khonj pelam ekta jyanto kobi'r. Er agge shobshomoy mrito kobider sathe chador'ertolay othbosh kore esechhi, kintu ei prothom kachh theke ekta jolojyanoto gota kobi, ekta shottor bochhor late timeboma'r dekha peye kirom chokh gulo jyano kopal'e uthe gelo, kopal theke matha beye uthe aste aste dhnowa dhulo, jongolmohol'er jatra'r poster, jouthobahini ar tari-mohuwa ke pash katiye bheshe bheshe upor dik'e uthe jete laglo. Oi chokh jorar shondhan ar pabo na bujhei hoyto notun choshmata agge theke koriye rekhechhilam. Notun bhabe dekhte laglam shob kichhu.
Bondhu Apurba bolechhilo je ami boddo stereotypical line likhi, kintu mairi bolchhi, ja kichhu achhe ta thak, ar ja kichuu gechhe ta jak, ami er baire ekhono, ei muhurte lekhata lekhakalino berote parchhi na. School'er bondhura shobai kirom ekta bemanan bekhappa smriti'r jayga'y dhuke porlo, ar notun bondhugulo aro notun notun kore peg'er por peg hishebe pile up korchhe ekhon chul dhaka bakshota'r bhetor.
Attotyag'er onektai baki, hoyto tai lekha'tao jutshoi holo na, aro kichhu din jak, aro kichhu khoye jai, aro kichhuta ghilu beriye poruk, pore thakuk pikmakha rasta'e, ami hoyto aro beshi shotti kore kothagulo bolte shikhbo. Shei ashate, ei shiit'e attotyag cholte thakuk.
BTW, hawa'r jwor'ta ekhono ter pachhi, kintu awaj'ta kyano janina apatoto shunte pacchi na.
