Bhikhhe

Bhangte bhangte ekta oboyobhin chhaya'e dhuke porlam. Amar ja kichhu chhilo, phire dekhe, nijer berajal baniye je shobdo, bhabna, akankha, adorsho gulo'ke ekta entropy baniye othat cheshta korchhilam kono ekta unchu akasher dik'e, hothat kore ki jaani ki durmoti'te ami sheshob dingiye agge bhage akash dhorte lafalam kichhu adhporikhhito megh'er upor. Elomelo hawa khanikhhon akashe tule dhorlo, tarpor brishti hoye pore jetei ami abar back to dhoroni. Amar thanda lagchhe, bhetore o baire theke, ami shurjohin prani hote parini, karon vitamin D na pele nimnochap'ei mrittu'r shombhabona, psychology teacher amay bhobishshotbani bolee diyechhilen. Tai ajker brishti jokhon amay dhuiye dichhe, kada'y makhiye onuporomanu'te firiye niye jachhe, amar dhore thakar nei kono kuto, koyek koti bochhor lagbe abar jure uthe ami hote, she shomoye tor chole jawa amake abaro beral'er kotha mone poralo :)

Ei Shiit'e Attotyag: Ekta oshompurno chhoto golpo

Proti bochhor ami ekbar kore amar jonmanor agger raat'e ekta lekha likhi, nijeke niye. Shara bochhore oitukui kyebol nijer pechhone khorcha, ontoto sheibhabei to mone korte bhalobashi. Kintu ebochhor lyadh kheye korini shei raatre. Tokhon bhebechhilam modh ar lyadh'er joutho onachaar, khanikta prosroymakha dhikkar janiyei katiye diyechhilam. Ekhon mone hochhe ota lyadh noy, ota bhoy. Nije paltate paltate track na korte parar bhoy, ekta shopner modhhe rasta hariye felar bhoy, chorbito shei purono line'gulo lekhar bhoy. Debu, amar khub bhalo bondhu, ekhono obdhi, Debu, bolechhilo ei shiit'ei attotyag ghotbe. Kar attotyag, kyano attotyag, kisher attotyag, tokhon bujhini, borong porom anonde rasta'r rikshawala'r sathe boshe chhilim tanar proletariyo anonder budbud'e bijbij kore uthechhe matha'r bhitor. Ekhon mone hoy, shiitkaal'e bodhoy shobai kholosh chharay.

Attotyag'er shuruta hoye jay ek raat'er Bukowski shongom'e. Ja kichhu maya momota sukhho porda'r arale lukono chhayay bneche theke ekta morjada shomponno bishwash jugiyechhilo, shei gotata hurmur kore bhenge pore chokh'er shamne jantob ekta naribhuri beriye asha kodorjo chehara niye. Lok'ta sharajibon bosti'te katiye gelo, jokhon ichhe tokhon meyemanush dhore chudlo, ar kobita likhe gelo bishwer shob bishshoy ke bhalobasha'e, kharap bhasha'e namiye ene. Pordin shokalei tamak'er khonje ek riksha dada'r sathe adventure Gorfa'r gohin jongole, ebong tarpor bypass'er dhare chupchap under construction site'e boshe chhilim tante tante mone hoyechhilo, hyan, Bukowski'r joggo bachcha howar dom rakhi, pari nijeke huhu hawa'e uriye niye jete. Attotyag'er shuru.

Tarpor onek kanagoli'r cliched dour periye shei pherot amar bari, tamar bari Jadavpur'er prokhor narri'te. Jonmodin elo gelo, ami jonmalam na. Majhemodhhe mone holo, jodi likhe feli ekta kichhu, tarpor ki ar amar kichhu bolar thakbe? Ei bhoye beformayeshi lekhata hariye gelo.

December'er shesh, koyekjon mile train'e chepe Krishnonogor namlam bhor shaare chhotay. Train'er modhhe kuashakombol niye lofalofi, "amra nuton joubon'eri duut". Dupur belay jante parlam je ami mon khule knaad'te ajo bhoy paina. Ashole manush'er sathe manush je koto rokom ongobhongi'te baatichiit chalate paare, kotorokom bhabe, sheta Arjun Khyapar naam'er ekjon manush'ke dekhe bujhlam, bujhe knaadlam, hashlam, nesha korlam. Hawa'r awaj aro jwore shunte shuru korlam.

Phire asha Kolkata'y, jadubidya'r bhabnachinta niye koshorot kora, Pucu ke ekjon notun bondhu hishebe khunje pawa, kete gelo aro koyekdin. Pucu ajob manush, nijer bhanga prem'er golpo ar bhanga banshi shuniye amar prem'ta aro khanikta mojbuut kore dey protidin. Hoyto o na thakle ami nijer prem'ta ke bansher kella'tei rekhe ditam. Ekjon manush jaja bhulbhal korechhe, shegulo sref aure gelo, ar ami notes'er khatay tar prem'er chhobi ankte ankte kobe nijer prem'ta keo jeno bhalobeshe fellam. Amar chhnokchhnok batik shorbojonbidito, o syphillis jatiyo STD ekta, khanikta bamon hoye shurje haath mara'r moton byapar. Tobu amar bhalomanush meye'ta shob shojhho kore amake bus'e pashe boshar jayga'tuku dilo, fuule ota ston'er bnota'r moton ekta puru achhadon'e dheke dilo amar shob paap, shob pipasha. PC na thakle hoyto ami, hoyto noy, ami definitely bheshe jetam, kintu anchor boro mojbuut buniyadi brand. Ami amar prem'ta ke anchor naam dilam.

Aabra'ca'Dabra elo, nijer joto raag dukhho hotasha ayna bhanga'r obhiggota, shob ekjaygay joro kore banate thaklam bondhu'der sathe ekta notun rajjo, jekhane gaachh'e gaachh'e kobita gojay ar prottek bnaak'e sax haath'e ekta kore Pucu opekhha kore thake amar. Odbhut utopian ekta commune'er hyal'e hariye jachhi ami, bujhte pari.

Bhalopahar'e khonj pelam ekta jyanto kobi'r. Er agge shobshomoy mrito kobider sathe chador'ertolay othbosh kore esechhi, kintu ei prothom kachh theke ekta jolojyanoto gota kobi, ekta shottor bochhor late timeboma'r dekha peye kirom chokh gulo jyano kopal'e uthe gelo, kopal theke matha beye uthe aste aste dhnowa dhulo, jongolmohol'er jatra'r poster, jouthobahini ar tari-mohuwa ke pash katiye bheshe bheshe upor dik'e uthe jete laglo. Oi chokh jorar shondhan ar pabo na bujhei hoyto notun choshmata agge theke koriye rekhechhilam. Notun bhabe dekhte laglam shob kichhu.

Bondhu Apurba bolechhilo je ami boddo stereotypical line likhi, kintu mairi bolchhi, ja kichhu achhe ta thak, ar ja kichuu gechhe ta jak, ami er baire ekhono, ei muhurte lekhata lekhakalino berote parchhi na. School'er bondhura shobai kirom ekta bemanan bekhappa smriti'r jayga'y dhuke porlo, ar notun bondhugulo aro notun notun kore peg'er por peg hishebe pile up korchhe ekhon chul dhaka bakshota'r bhetor.

Attotyag'er onektai baki, hoyto tai lekha'tao jutshoi holo na, aro kichhu din jak, aro kichhu khoye jai, aro kichhuta ghilu beriye poruk, pore thakuk pikmakha rasta'e, ami hoyto aro beshi shotti kore kothagulo bolte shikhbo. Shei ashate, ei shiit'e attotyag cholte thakuk.

BTW, hawa'r jwor'ta ekhono ter pachhi, kintu awaj'ta kyano janina apatoto shunte pacchi na.

Obantor 3

Majhe majhe, prakton premika'r chhobi dekha bhalo
Ekta purono bishfool'ke khnuchiye rosh ber korar anondo pawa jay
Nijeke abar besh purono shei bagher bachcha bole bhul hoy.

Majhe majhe, prakton premika'r chhobi dekha bhalo
Chokh'er sathe chokh, ar naak'er sathe naak, angle'e bodol'ta bojha jay.
Bujhte pari, ei ko mash'e, aro khanik lomba hoyechhi.

Majhe majhe, prakton premika'r chhobi dekha bhalo
Knaad'te knaad'te haath mara'r onabil anondo labh kori
Ar bojropaat poroborti odhya'e purotai kali-kolom ulte makha bishonno tebiil.

Majhe majhe, prakton premika'r chhobi dekha bhalo
Matha'r modhhe'ta dhipdhip kore othe olpo sholpo praktoni biplob
Ar amio habijabi bolar ekta dohai pai.

Obantor 2

Bhalo thaka'r bara bhaat'e chhai diye
Nimnange tejoshkriyo bhalobasha
makhiye koltola'y chan kori

Ar Kolkata'r ghum bhange
arek juug'er paaltola shokale
bullet, bishonnota, ar shathe toritorkari

Ami Kobita Likhte Pari Na

Ami kobita likhte parina
ami bolte pari na oi
khete khawa abchhaya
ar tar bondhu'der rawgrawge golpo

ami kobita likhte pari na
ami parina roddure gachh'er
bakol chhariye banate
amar oshlil baghchhal

ami kobita likhte pari na
oshushtho alapcharitar
o half-galaj'er budbud'e
bheshe berai janala'r deshe

ami kobita likhte pari na
nijer mukher shathe
pet'er shathe, daant'er shathe
anchor-kamorer hisheb melate

ami kobita likhte parina
kebol majhraate proshob-
byatha'e chilchitkire raag'e
keyboard nongra korte pari

Ami kobita likhte pari?
Na.

Obantor 1

ami bnachi nehat'i
du-ek'ta sneher du-ekta haather porosh pabar jonno
ar du ek dana khnuudkuro
jai niye chhaad'er kona'e, uthal
patal tor asha'e
lopat hoi niye, amar dowstana'gulo..

Shubho Deepa-Boli

Prottek bochhor'er moton ebochhoreo ami ekrash ghenna ebong ek chhotak pitti ugre rasta'e nami.
Alo'r mala'y para'gulo ke beshya'r moton laage, rasta'e baaji poranor daag, beshya'r jothorer khide.
Akashe rongin shell ure jay, ar phire ashe na. Tukro tukro rongin agun neme ashe pith lokhho kore, hothat kore nijeke Vietnam-bashi ek bridhho mone hoy.
Kuashachhonno rasta'e ami ganja'r dhnowa bhebe pora carbon monoxide gili,
ar ek fnaake tubri'r jhor'e itostoto bikhhipto ghilu'r kona kuriye ni shobar chokh'er arale.
Ami manush'er moton na, eta ami jani, kintu paa'er pata amar moteo boro hochhe na, bhalo kore lokhho kore bujhi.
Kebol matha'ta bhari laage, moneybag'er bhetor 'joy matadi' chimti kete chole jounange.
Amar hijre protibeshi'r mukh dhaka daari ar haath'e jolonto mombaati dekhe 'Mother, mother, ora Talibaan'ke dhongsho korbe bolchhe?' bole proshno kori.
Jolonto chorki chhnure maare amar matha lokhho kore prottek chhad theke, ami jyano Kalo Kashyap'er cinema'r hero, eshob eriye nordoma periye chhut maari.
'Daddy, amar'ta purchhe na, puriye dao na?', proshno kore kucho bachcha tar kyelo baap'ke. Ichhe kore thatiye thappor mari, shala, meye'ke 'baba' bolte shekhaoni, banchot?

Tarpor ek shomoy, shob alo nibhe jabar por, jokhon para'r rasta'ta shunshan hoye jay, ami etolbetol shobder dhal namiye, habijabi ittyadi matha'r opor shajiye bari phera'r poth dhori.

Amra pourushhin, 
amra oshohay, 
amra bhije knatha matha'y jorai, 
amra digboloyhin math'er uddeshshe chhut mara, 
amra shada shaheber ghora'r chnaat kheye keliye pora race course'er majhkhan'e, 
amra chalk'er khori'r modhhe abodhho uchhishtho, 
amra...