Thursday, September 1, 2011

Why Jim Morrison should have been alive

In my induction ceremony
In my dream
Inside my head
We heard him scream

"You cannot petition the lord with prayer!"

"I disagree, sir" I said
You can petition him to go away
"Only if he'd hear what you have to say
He surely would have ran away."

Lost And Found

I am what you may call
The lost boy from yesterday
Laugh, or cry
or just frown
For me you gladly may.
But I am
What you see me as
The lost boy from yesterday
One who was never lost
Some might think,
and some might say.

Wednesday, August 31, 2011

Chicken Soup For The Misbegotten Soul

I plan to die, once I'm over with this life
And even though I like you (a bit)
I think I'll say goodbye.
But won't you miss me
That part of the chicken soup
which you never liked
Won't you miss me
That pale, sick taste of chicken flavoured weakness
I plan to die, once I'm over with this life.

Friday, August 26, 2011

Portrait Of A Woman: Part 2, The Unforgettable

  You, you are someone I can never forget. You dwell in the alleyways of my memory lane, and when it is time for me to go back among the living, to live once again, you jump out of your solitude, you grab me by the collar, and tug me and throw me into the murkiness below your pedestal, into the reality. 
  There is very little connection between the essentials here, you, me, and the reality. It is in the moments of crisis, that you come out, only to retreat back again, like a turtle queen inside her palatial sorrow. And I beg you to come out into the sunlight, and show me my way back home, but to no use. It is not my moment of crisis, for I am one who belongs to the road, to travelling, to being rootless, and to disavowing my needs of a settlement. 
  My moment of crisis is when I stagnate, when stop and start to look around at the ground below me, trying to remember whether it had been barren or lush green the last time I traversed this age old path. My weakness, is the tendency of turning glacial, and so you exist, to stop me from being a frozen stream of consciousness.
  And that is the reason you scare the shit out of me. I know how much I need you, and so do you. But you are the turtle, dreaming inside her sorrow, so when you reach out that mouth and bite, trying to claim a piece of me all for yourself, you hurt me. It isn't that I'm not ready to give up my flesh and bones for you, but only if you'd promise to become that colourful butterfly and stop being the old turtle. I am selfish, and don't know what is right, and what is left for my own safety, and so I want you out here below the night sky, beside me.
  But no, your true place is in the palatial sorrow, a palace I built for you my Queen, inside my mind so you may stay warm. And so that you may comfort me, letting me know it wont be over soon.
 And so you dwell alone in the dark alleyways like a lone spectre, never letting me bury my own ashes, my own past, for you are the Unforgettable, and you'll never let me go.

Portrait Of A Woman: Part 1, The Undefeated


Yes. Undefeated. That's what I take you to be. And that's what you are.
  What is it with you people, huhn, that everytime I look at you, that sharp face, those eyes, that I feel so scared, and yet so proud? I know you, I know all that there is to know about, and all that there isn't, and yet I stare in awe. Awe, it is a reaction which is created in the human mind when they experience something gigantic, something which leaves the impression of a miniscular big bang inside the mind. I, myself, when I stand at the feet of an Easter Island Head, or maybe see something as giant as Gauguin's "Where Do We Come From? What Are We? Where Are We Going?", or maybe when I listen to DSM, I feel numbed, and I know I'm in awe. But then why does this little figure, this less than overbearing image makes me feel the same way, at points? I don't know.
  As I said before, I know all that there is to know, and maybe that's why, I know all your pains, all your glories, all the mindless shitty situations you've been through, and all the mindless shitty stories you've taken part in. I hate you at points, for bearing all these, and yet, you make me proud, for bearing all these.
  Even when I see you, in that dark corner, all by yourself, withholding any kind of service others might provide to you, you seem to be magnanimous. I see you weep, cringe, wince and get molested by your own petty demons, just like any one of us out here. Or is it so? For when we make love, laugh, behave like we'd be partying even if there's a second Cuban Missile Crisis, you lament. And maybe regret too. And you cry.
  But it is not this part which makes me proud, this just makes me feel helpless, feel like a voyeuristic audience. I want to bite the heads of my fingers off, wishing to be there in time to save you. But to think it over, if you had been stopped then, you wouldn't have turned out to be what you are today, someone I admire, respect, and love. So yeah, for my own selfish reason, you needed the pain. And today, when I see you wiping those tears, and coming out into the light, a smile more bright than the light surrounding us, I feel proud, and happy. And I know, because you are, the Undefeated.

Friday, August 12, 2011

Ittadi

Photograph
Amar manush shadakalo
Amar frame-ei achhe bondi
Amar mogoje chup curfew
Shadakalo-i amar gondi.


Ghorchhara
Pagla ghonti beje chole
Mon'er majher phone-e
Pagla kokil ar dake na
Bhanga chand-er kon-e.


Nesha
Ekla ghore
Raat katate
Korchhe ajo bhoy
Neon alo'r
Karshajite
Buk'er bhetor khoy


Boyosh Bara'r Khela
Bhangchhe, ar gorchhe
Majh akashe urchhe
Porte porte shamle niye
Abar sheshe ghurchhe
Chirokal'er jhograta
Abar shuru korchhe
Thashiye ghuriye ek thappor
Nij'er haath-i purchhe
Boyesh bara'r khelata aj
Amar sathei lorchhe


Dewal
Ghor'er modhhe ekta dewal
Ghorke ghire char
Mon'er majhe kota dewal
Hisheb mela bhar.


Pandulipi
Dhushor, khoyri, rogate molat
Naki ota shada rokto?
Onko khata'r calculus-e
Olpo prem'er golpo koshto.


Ondho
Boro rasta'r bnadik ghenshe
Tolte tole choli
Amar prem'er dwitiyo naam
Matal'er kanagoli.


Confusion And Reality
Kalo'r majhei alo
Naki alo'r majhei kalo
Shesh chithita uriye bujhi
Amar Ondhokar'i bhalo.

Jolo Prem
Naah, kono biponno bishhoy-tishhoy noi,
Nehat-i boka
Ami, tai 'jol dao', 'jol dao'
Bole sref tor shamne, tor shamnei
Matha noto kore dariye achhi.
Jhaupata noi je ghumiye porbo,
Shishir-tishir noi je jhore porbo
Nehat-i boka ami
Tai teshta metate para'r kol-eo
Line ta lagayni.

Bus stop-e tin minute-ta naholeo
Mairi bolchhi, roj raatre toke,
Kebol tokei onekkhon...
Nira, othoba Nari, jai hosh tui
Mairi bolchhi, aj raatreo tui,
Kebol tui-i...
Please, ektu jol dibi?

Saturday, August 6, 2011

Heart Of Life

     Fear. Yes. That thing which makes you act in the most desperate way. It makes you forget everything you ever stood for. All the big talks. All the small talks. All the talks that were left unuttered. Fear, ruins you status of being unbroken and unspoken. The fear that a Titanik might land right inside on your head, or the fear that you'll dies that slow, painful death, all the while listening to sweet, lovely music. Or maybe the fear that a time bomb will blow inside you, making every bit of your signs of existence fly till the ends of the world. Yes, this is the best one.
      A time bomb, that's strapped right to your heart. A heart is possessed by even the most brainiest man on earth. It's inside you, and it has a beat. Anyway, the question is, what shall you do? Tear apart that heart, crumble it inside your own hands, or maybe make paper boat out of it and let it go, hoping that once its a good distance away, you can get to enjoy the fireworks with a bucket full of popcorns. All the while trying to forget all the pain that was involved in the process of ripping it apart, or maybe slicing open the veins. So yay, you wont die now, the heart's gone. But there's this new problem. What do you filll up that little place right above your left lung with? Paper? Broken bottles? A cat? Its a fucking landfill, and there's nothing, nothing huge enough to fill that void. So a heartless man sits, thinking what next? Where to get those new, expensive hearts you heard they were selling in the streets? You turn the whole city upside down, yet there's no sign of a good enough heart. And I'm sure you know, that just like wands in HP series, not all hearts fit that bony cage of yours. You search everywhere, the neon lighted streets, the dark alleyways, the dark corporate houses, the dingy markets. There's hearts, everywhere, but not the one for you. Then one day, this shady character, in his 60s bollywood noir tone, lets you know a little secret, in return for a handsome fee. You sell everything, everything to get back that heart of yours. And he tells you, far away in a hill, there lives a witch, a wise, compassionate witch, who can give you whatever you want. You run for that hill. And you run, you run, and the sun is the same in a relative way, but your older, as the old bards had sang. Once you reach the witch, and tell her what you want, she agrees to give it to you, in return for your brain. Yes, that thing that's inside the bony skull of yours. You decide to give it up, brains grow back, hearts don't. And she, taking her cauldron, and all the secret ingredients, brews a potion, and right out of the potion, jumps out a healthy heart. A healthy, welthy heart, for which any son of God can put up his godliness on sell. You take the heart, thank the witch, and fit in the heart. You screw it tight, patch up the blocks neatly, and seal your chests so that no one, ever, ever again can lay their hands on that heart again.
     And it is then you realise, there's a clock ticking inside that heart. It's that timebomb. It's back. You ask the witch why she had to cheat you, and she replies, "it is you who asked for the perfect heart. The heart perfect for you. So this is it."
    And the game begins, again.